FUCK!

.

Motivate me?

Kring kring!

I need to get up!

We need to be up!

Ok, so I've realized these few years that I can't be productive by staying home. That's why I've been doing odd jobs for the past years and have been really good at it. I've received great feedbacks from my superiors and I honestly do like what I've done so far. But when I got home, I'll just lie down or sit back wasting my time in front of the monitor or playing games on my phone or catching up the episodes of how smarter 5th grade kids are compared to some people. Dem. Not that I'm 100% in-productive, but I could say only 20% of the time used to a good cause. Dem dem dem!

So when the new year's approaching, I've said to myself to be working harder next year! To just get up and go! I know I can't change myself while being at home. So I really hope I'm motivated enough to go out everyday and give my all before coming back to my bunk.

Can I?

I hope I can. I know I can. Just need some booster and waiting for the right time to pull the trigger.

And for you. I know you'll do fine. I want to be able to get hold to myself, first. And then I'm sure we can go through this together. I sincerely hope you'll do great in the things you're doing right now. You have got the right attitude, just not the right technique yet. Well, you know what they say. Practice makes perfect. And please believe in that. Because I'm starting to get the benefits of it already. It sure takes time. Long or short, totally depends on your effort and willingness to do it.

Hope we will stay strong going through this.

Up up and away!

2 0 1 0. Go!

Empty.

Yawn~

I'm sick. Yes. Having a high ego shows that we're sick. Just learnt that last week and still not doing anything to 'heal'. Well, suit me!

I am currently working on MrD since morning. Having an empty of Spaghetti by my side. Tissues of sniffing and snuffing here and there. A jug of plain water from downstairs only to find that there's no mug around. Opened wallet - and guess what's inside? Nothing. A switched off TV in front of me. Laying my back on the sofa. And best of all. Alone! I'm loving this situation. There's no awkwardness of moving my legs every time somebody wants to pass by while I'm sitting on the couch. And of course, I can sit in which ever position I'd like, wearing whatever I want and do not want to! Hahaha. Seriously, I love this situation. Only that, the deadline is in the next couple of days. My legs are broken (direct Malay translation). And I am not yet employed.

Was drooling (and still am) at Bass & Cullen since morning. Oh my gawd. I know Westwick is British and all, but having a band? Music band? OMG. He just couldn't be more awesomeness-tessst. But dang, both of them are younger than me. And seems like, everyone else around me is much younger than me too. Am I getting older? Cannot be. I just celebrated my birthday in the previous post! ^_^

He's outstation...again. Suddenly craving for cupcakes. He's into doughnuts but to me, they are just a bit dry to my throat. I prefer cupcakes. Shall we go for cuppies for the next tea-break, yoy? Only that Chica can satisfy me. Oh, and there's one friend of my cousin's. Her cuppies are awesome. Not too sweet. Just the way I like it. :D

Baked muffins yesterday. I think all this while, my muffins tasted more like a scone. So am working on how to bake a scone for my next baking session. Dem. Now I'm craving for that English Scone from *$, heated up with 2 cubes of butter at the side. Nyummy.

We went 'hunting' last weekend. Right after the wedding celebration of my dear ex-schoolmate. Oh, my. I sooo can't wait to be able to really own the 'hunted items'. Ok, one for me, and one for him. Weeee. But being me, a non-productive-unemployed-lazy arse person alive, I may have to stare at the poster a little longer than holding the actual thing. ;c

So much for the month of December. It's the last month of the year. Means if you're not meeting the KPI of the; stress level, cash-less, breakdowns just yet. Wait for it. It could all gather up and happen in the very last minute of the so-called 2009. Till then, breathe-in...breathe-out. What's there to look forward to in 2010? Ah-lottt, I must say.

As for me, it's a one step further to everything. Some I have planned, and some I have never intend to. But Allah knows best. Everything has so far been quite well patterned out for me. So I'm sticking with the plan. God willing, everything and I mean EVERYTHING will go well.

Insya Allah.

You are a quarter year old.

Betul ke Quarter Year Old? Anyways, happy 25th year old to my beloved AIYA!!!!

Best betul main Photobucket Photo Editor nih. :D

May the future ahead you will full of joy and happiness with your beloved one. :D

How's yours?

1 Syawal 1430

This is the first time I'm celebrating Eidul Fitr at home. For the past 20+ years that I can remember, at this time of the year, I'll be lying on the bed because of crucial headache after eating a lot of homemade lemang and ketupat. And I'll be wearing my new baju Raya almost the whole day and sometimes I wore them to sleep. And then, everybody else will be in front of the TV to watch filem Melayu they're showing for Raya Specials. Atok will be alone watching RTM in the living room eating kuih raya and looking at the ants eating his kuih raya. And last year, after so many years, I got to play bunga api again! Weee.

But this year is so much different.

Arwah Atok is no longer with us. Mmy is not here. And for the first time in my life, I woke up to the takbir of first Syawal alone in Mmy's bed. I once told Teh that I could write a blog about my 43days of home alone in Ramadhan but it's not about those 43 days that have changed my life. It's those few days I was left by myself that made me think and realize that I am actually living a real life. Real ordinary everyday people's life.

I learnt a lot from my experience and a lot more from other people's experiences. After a while of observing and thinking to myself, and discussing with other (experienced) people, I've decided to let it out. To make things straight and clear once and for all. Some say I am being disturbed by the scenario and it's partly true. I'm actually more disturbed thinking of the scenario after. So I prayed for everything went well and I did it. Some say I did a good deed in Ramadhan. The other congratulate and calmed me by saying that I'd done the right thing. I pat myself at the back and said to myself that everything will be better. I'm happy thinking about it. That's how I've always been all this while. Other people first. I'll come after.

I know. I've realized it sometime ago. Just when I feel like ignoring that person, I'll be saying to myself that he/she deserves another chance to be helped. Not like I'm really 'helping' them, but I believe I'm easing some of their difficulties, somehow.

But we can only pray, wish and hope for the best. Unfortunately, the bright side is not always on ours. I'm being misunderstood and because it was me who pointed at the black dot, the others who I discussed with about the dot of course did not get the blame. Oh, well. Serves me right. Why didn't I just be selfish like most of the people around me? Maybe I should start now.

Mmy just called. And ever since she's been gone, that was the first time I heard her voice. And I suddenly realized that I am literally alone in this house for Eid Mubarak. Even the cats are outside. And I also realized how I miss her so much. No matter how we argue about that thing you wanted so much that I didn't approve. And how mad you are to me for losing that one cat you love. She will still be there and will always be the one to cheer me up in this silence.

And even though I baked muffins instead of cooking rendang and nasik impit this morning, I would like to thank those who made me feel like I'm part of you. Thanks to you and your family for the beautiful last iftar yesterday. I almost forgot how mom's cooking is always the best. And thanks to you for taking a photo of me with my baju raya. It'll be a proof that Raya will not be complete without a baju raya. And nothing else.

...yes. Because muffin works for me. And love is just a phone call away.

I'll be missing all these.

Salam Eid Mubarak. Maaf Zahir & Batin.

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Pengalaman ngeri semasa pulang dari kerja.

Selesai bersahur...

Lepas sahur biasanya aku tido balik. Bangun 6.30 untuk shalat Subuh pastu kadang2 tido balik, kadang2 mengadap laptop ofis buat report. Tapi hari ni pas sahur tak ngantuk sgt pulak. Lepas baca post hp dari A, aku rasa mcm nak menaip. (aihh dah start pose, baru nak korek idong)

Di dalam dilema...

Semalam aku melalui satu pengalaman yang sungguh mengerikan dan sungguh menakutkan (ngeri dgn takut sama ke?) Keluar dari site dalam kol 6.20 mcm tu.. Aku tgk kat luar memang gelap tapi tak hujan lagi. So aku bajet kalau aku bwk laju2, boleh lari dari hujan. Well, that was MY theory. Sampai kat Jln Tun Razak tu dah start angin kuat pastu hujan rintik2. Bila masuk je KL-Putra highway, fuhh... hujan lebat gila! Kalau stakat hujan takpe, ini skali dgn ribut kuat dan kilat sabung menyabung. Sebelum tol tu ada satu jambatan, ingat nak berenti tapi dah penuh dah dgn motor dan agak bahaya berhenti tepi tu sebab dekat sgt dgn jalan. Banyak jadi dah moto berenti bawah jambatan kena "sapu" dgn kete yang careless. So aku pun tanpa pilihan lain terpaksa meneruskan perjalanan ke "mordor" (sape yg tak tgk LOTR mmg tak paham).

Ribut petir...

Nak stop tepi jalan pakai baju hujan dah takde makna lagi sebab aku dah sedia kuyup dah so aku pulas jugak throttle aku dan pasang signal ke kanan dengan harapan kete belakang nampak ada helpless motorcyclist yang sedang membawa motor di depan. Mungkin Allah nak uji, tapi seriously time tu aku rasa mcm takut gila sebab dengan langit yang gelap, hujan lebat tak ingat dan angin kuat melampau2. Aku boleh nampak barisan hujan yang dibentuk oleh angin. Aku time tu takut sangat sampai aku baca ayatul-Qursi non stop. Sejuk, takut, seram time tu hanya Allah yang tahu. Dalam pada tu jugak aku terpikir nasib baik aku letak laptop aku dalam plastik bag dan nasib baik jugak aku pakai handphone murah. Kalau iPhone dgn Blackberry tadi memang aku menangis dah. Bila nak dekat sampai exit Bukit Jalil hujan dah tak selebat tadi dan dah takde ribut dah.. Fuh.. lega.... Bila nak masuk simpang yang ke Bukit Jalil tu seperti biasa ada driver2 yang takde otak atau otak dia mcm otak dinosour (fakta:otak dinosour hanya sebesar kacang), guna emergency lane sebagai laluan diorang. Ape ke bahlol. Memang aku rasa time tu nak sepak je side mirror dia. Nasib baik lepas aku hon mcm orang gila, dia ketepikan kete buruk dia. Haihhhhh!! Please considerate la... Motor nak jalan kat mana kalau sampai emergency lane pun korang sapu??? Haih....

Tiba...

Aku akhirnya sampai jugak ke rumah walaupun basah dari atas sampai ke bawah dan sampai ke dalam. Aku amat amat bersyukur aku selamat tiba walaupun mengharungi satu pengalaman yang sangat mengerikan. Masa2 mcm ni lah aku terasa mcm alangkah bestnya kalau aku pergi balik kerja naik kete. Tapi bila pikir2 balik dgn jalan KL yg jem mcm haram, harga parking yang tak masuk akal dan tol yang menyakitkan hati, terus hilang angan2 aku tu.

bak kata pepatah Inggeris,

"rain or shine, just keep on riding man..."

In-the-view

I am currently unemployed. Am enjoying each and every second! I have been job-hunting too. Not aggressively, though.

Went to an interview this morning. It was the most fished-up one I have ever been to.

I just remembered about the interview one day before. Less than 12 hours before the actual event. At about 0100hrs Nx texted, wished me luck. Yea, truly need it. So I woke up early. Searched for the invitation letter to confirm about the time and place. And read the very last line twice - "Sila bawa sijil asal dan salinan sijil yang telah disahkan". Yeay. 1) I have not made a copy of my sijil-s. 2) How to certify if no copies?

Me no car. Bro took it yesterday. Interview at 9am. I realized this situation at about 6.30am. Texted sis hoping the hubs could help me out. Failed. As cool as I could be, fed the cats, transferred the latest resume to ThumBlack, bring original sijil-s, walked to the train station. It's 8am sharp. I doubt if I could reach there on time. You know how 'puNCtual' the train usually is. So asked the pakcik cab while on my way to the station.

"Pakcik, gi MidVal berape?"
"*mumbles* ringgit..."
"Berapa, pakcik?"
"Dua (puluh) lima"
*eyes widen*
"Takpelah, pakcik"
"Nak berapa, dik?"
"Takpe2."

Bitter heart. Yes, when my heart is bitter-ed it is very difficult to Ctrl+Z.

To cut things short, I reached MidVal at 8:56am, wandered for a few minutes because I suddenly forgot how to enter the venue even when I have been there before for the previous site survey. Grrrr. Did not manage to make a copy of sijil-s. Kedai sume tak bukak lagi. *gamble je*

Entered. A group of young lads in front of me, looking weirdly at a clueless lady carrying a sling back crossed the body, with another knitted-green bag on the right shoulder with a file in it, and the left hand carrying a red and white paper bag with stuff to be Pos Laju-ed later. That clueless lady is me.

*Look right, left*
*Looking at the centre of the group, not knowing to whom I was speaking to* "Err... interview eh?"
*Some voice from the group said*"Hak ah"
*Moved my view to another 2 degrees*"Tak yah register ape2 ke?"
*Another voice*"Takyah2"

No available chair spotted. So I stood at one corner. Texting people. Checked for WiFi connection. Detected. But could not use it to surf the net. Yawn. One of the staffs passed me a chair. Sit.

Waited for about an hour.

Finally, my name was called. *relieved* Entered. Sit.

"Tau ke position ape awak nak apply ni"
"Tau. SE untuk projek kt Sab"
"Boleh duduk Sab 2tahun?"
"Boleh, insya Allah. Saya pernah duduk Sar"
"Sar lain. Sab ni kawasan kampung"

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"Tempat tinggal macam mana, encik?"
"Sendiri. Murah je sewa kat sane"
"Transport?"
"Kita sediakan."
"Untuk semua orang ke?"
"Biasanya untuk SE masuk site"
"O ok"

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"Kamu boleh kerja ngan lelaki?"
*bored face*"Boleh, insya Allah"
"Kalau kamu sorang pompuan, ade 2 lagi lelaki, boleh?"
"Boleh, insya Allah"

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"Dah kahwin?"
"Belum"
"Ada perancangan nak kahwin dalam waktu terdekat?"
"Tak tau lagi"
"Ada calon?"
"Takde" (hehe, sorry cuk. This is standard answer as written in the schematic :P)

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"Kamu takut hantu?"
I seriously did not answer this question. I looked at him with a fucked up face.
"Kalau gi site malam2, ade hantu raya berjuntai kat pokok, boleh? Selalu jadik camtu"
"Hmm. Saya biasa kerja malam, balik pukul 2-3 pagi. Sorang2. Insya Allah, ok"
"Tu jalan tar, sedap la. Ni jalan pedalaman"
"Saya tak pernah kerja macam tu, so saya cakap apa yang saya pernah alami je"

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"Apa beza batteri dengan genset?"
"Batteri tu kering..."
"Itu fizikal die. Ape beza die dari segi bagi tenaga?"
"Tak tau"
"Nanti saya ajar kamu balik, belanja saya minum ye"
My heart was screaming to leave immediately.

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This was the first time I interviewed for a post in a govt body. And I hope I will never go through the same situation again. Only the last part was relevant to the post. And I seriously do not understand why they were so concern about shitstuffs rather than people's attitude towards how they perform their work.

And I was totally annoyed with the lady staff there who was busy talking with another male. The door bell ringed once. The door switch is just right in front of her nose. But she kept talking with the male. Bell ringed twice. Only then she pressed the button and continued talking without guilt. I seriously felt like banging her head so that she could push the button with her nose. Seriously.

Fish!

But all in all. It was a good experience. Thanks Nx for the opportunity. Now I know why I have always hated govt body. 'We' are so used to be spoonfed that being lazy is compulsory. Thank God I sucked in the interview.


Good luck!

Emotional statement on a Sunday.

I hate driving. I only drive auto. Sometimes I drive manual just to repark the car. The other day I forgot which was the clutch pedal.

Few shoutouts to all the wreckless drivers I've just met today :

Use your signal lights!

If it's faded, get it washed so everyone can see when it's blinking!

Don't switch lanes in the middle of the road!

There. I hate driving.

Hear me, tolonglah.

OK, the rule was : He writes in malay. I write in english. Don't get me wrong. The rule remains. But I just feel like speaking in Malay for this post.

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Bukan apa, aku rasa entri kali ni lebih mudah difahami oleh orang2 yang aku nak tujukan. So, aku harap, at least 50% daripada pembaca entri ni ialah my target readers. Aku rasa tak salah nak campur 2 bahasa yang berbeza, sebab zaman sekarang ni pun orang selalu selitkan bahasa selain bahasa ibunda dalam pertuturan biasa.

Sekarang ni dah masuk pertengahan bulan Ramadhan. Dalam lebih kurang 2 minggu lagi, umat Islam seluruh dunia bakal menyambut bulan Syawal, insya Allah. Rakyat Malaysia ke, Saudi Arabia ke, China ke, Mongolia ke, jika namanya Muslim, semua orang akan menyambut Syawal. Cara sambutan mungkin berbeza. Ada yang masak ketupat dan rendang. Lemang dan lodeh. Kuih dan muih. Ada yang pakai baju kurung, baju kebaya, atau ada yang pakai serentak jadi baju kebarung. Jubah, baju melayu, atau cukup sekadar memakai baju yang sedia ada dan nampak elok dan sesuai. Tak semestinya yang baru itu cantik dan yang lama itu tidak relevan. Terpulang pada diri sendiri untuk menilai.

Malangnya, selama hampir 25tahun aku hidup di muka bumi ini, di mana-mana aku pergi, perangai manusia tetap sama. Semulajadi agaknya? Aku mengaku, perangai ni juga ada dalam diri aku, tapi kita kena lah berpada-pada. Tak kan waktu kita sedang menyembah Allah yang Maha Esa pun kita perlu berkelakuan sedemikian? Mungkin aku berbunyi emosi. Tapi aku harap emosi aku ni masih dapat dikawal. Perangai yang aku maksudkan ialah 'pentingkan diri sendiri, bongkak, angkuh'.

Dah jadi kebiasaan sejak kecil, bulan Ramadhan merupakan waktu yang seronok sekali. Bagi kanak-kanak kecil seperti aku 18tahun yang lalu, siang hari adalah masa untuk tidur dan lupakan erti kelaparan. Menjelang petang, akan melawat bazaar Ramadhan yang pada suatu ketikanya hanyalah 'sejengkal' dari rumah, tapi terpaksa ditukar ke kawasan perumahan yang satu lagi kerana keadaan kesesakan lalu lintas yang tak dapat dikawal. Selepas berbuka, bergegas menunaikan solat Maghrib sebab dah nak habis waktu akibat terlalu lama menghabiskan masa untuk 'menyelesaikan' segala juadah yang diperoleh dari bazaar. Terus ke masjid yang kurang 'sejengkal' dari rumah untuk menunaikan solat Terawikh. Saat paling seronok. Kerana itulah 'port' untuk berjumpa rakan-rakan untuk bergelak ketawa dan berlari-lari ketika bonda sedang menunaikan solat Terawikh hingga ke rakaat ke 20.

Dan yang paling best sekali ialah sebab, bila tiba bulan Ramadhan, maknanya lepas tu Raya! Yeay.

Masjid DE sudah banyak berubah sepanjang 18tahun yang lalu. Jika dulu, kawasan solat Muslimat yang terletak di tingkat atas hanya dipasang kipas siling dan kipas dinding di beberapa tiang. Lampu juga ditutup. Cahaya daripada kawasan solat Muslimin dari tingkat bawah yang menerangi bahagian solat kaum Muslimat. Ini menyebabkan manusia-manusia yang berperangai seperti dinyatakan di atas memberi pelbagai alasan. Ada yang membawa kipas meja dari rumah dan meletakkan betul2 di hadapannya, beberapa cm daripada kepalanya ketika sujud. Kipas itu dikhususkan untuk dirinya sahaja sepanjang solat Isyak hingga habis solat Terawikh 20 rakaat dan solat Witr 3 rakaat.

Ada yang seolah-olah cetek ilmu agama atau mungkin, memang cetek ilmu agama kerana enggan merapatkan saf ketika menunaikan solat yang dinamakan 'berjemaah'. Jemaah ini asal dari perkataan 'jamak'. Yang bererti 'banyak' ataupun dalam aspek solat, bermaksud 'himpun'. Correct me if I'm wrong. Aku bukanlah tokoh agama atau cendekiawan bahasa, tapi aku amat faham bila setiap kali sebelum solat, Pak Imam akan kata "Luruskan saf. Rapatkan bahu." Kanak-kanak kecil pun boleh faham. Ertinya, saf perlu diluruskan. Dan bahu perlu dirapatkan. Tetapi ada manusia yang dengan angkuhnya, merenggangkan saf dengan sengaja, dan 'gap' yang dijarakkan adalah di antara 1 kipas siling ke kipas siling yang satu lagi. Ya. Alasan yang diberikan ialah "...saya nak solat bawah kipas. Panaslah..." Mungkin perlu setiap seorang yang tidak solat di bawah kipas untuk diletakkan kipas meja di depan mereka setiap satu? Jika itu yang boleh membuatkan mereka luruskan saf, dan rapatkan bahu. Mungkin?

Tapi ahli jawatankuasa Masjid DE sangat prihatin. Setelah beberapa tahun kaum Muslimat yang solat di tingkat atas dengan diterangi cahaya dari tingkat bawah dan beberapa biji kipas siling dan kipas dinding yang tidaklah begitu berangin (tetapi tidaklah ada orang pernah mati kepanasan dengan keadaan ini sebenarnya), banyak improvement telah dilakukan. Syabas. Jika dahulunya saf kaum Muslimat adalah berbaris-baris hingga ke saf paling belakang, pihak Masjid telah menambahkan sedikit ruang lagi untuk keselesaan para jemaah. Ada pula golongan makcik-makcik atau nenek-nenek yang uzur dan tidak dapat menunaikan solat berdiri, disediakan kerusi bagi mereka. Sekarang ni, ada bahagian kecil di penjuru kawasan solat Muslimin yang dikhaskan untuk golongan yang kurang berkemampuan ini. Kerana hendak memanjat tangga ke tingkat atas tu agak bahaya untuk mereka.

Terbaru, tandas Muslimat sedang diubahsuai untuk diperbesar demi keselesaan semua pihak sempena menjelang bulan mulia. Tidak cukup lagi, sistem penghawa dingin telah dipasang di kedua-dua tingkat agar para jemaah tidak perlu mengangkut kipas meja dari rumah untuk diletakkan di depan muka. Lampu juga sudah 'dibenarkan' untuk dipasang di kawasan Muslimat bagi mengurangkan bilangan para Muslimat yang sering 'berlayar' ketika Pak Imam membaca surah-surah yang panjang lebar ketika solat Terawikh. Memang menjadi tradisi Masjid DE. Di bulan Ramadhan, satu juzuk akan dihabiskan dalam satu malam. Cukup 30malam, insya Allah khatamlah satu Al-Quran.

Malangnya, dengan kecanggihan teknologi dan keselesaan facilities yang diberikan, ada sahaja alasan yang digunakan untuk tetap berperangai angkuh dan sombong. Adegan ini terjadi pada diri aku sendiri minggu lepas.

Adegan 1 :

Aku berada di saf paling depan, kerana lepas rakaat ke-8, menjadi lumrah, 10saf (jika sampai 10) yang di belakang akan terus berkeliaran dan tinggal lah 2-3 saf yang paling depan untuk meneruskan hingga rakaat yang terakhir. Tapi pada tahun ini, memang biasanya, 1 saf saja yang tinggal. Ahli jemaah di sebelah kiri aku terus balik lepas rakaat ke-8. Ada ruang di antara aku ngan orang sebelah. Orang sebelah dah start solat sebab Pak Imam dah angkat takbir. Aku tarik die sedikit, tanda untuk merapatkan renggang. Dia tidak berganjak. Walau 1mm pun. Aku cuba belah kanan pula. Sama. Makcik yang sebelum ini di sebelah aku berbadan agak gempal, jadi ruangnya adalah agak besar. Aku bergegas pergi ke hujung saf, "kak, tolong pergi kat tengah tu boleh tak? ada ruang". Alhamdulillah, akak tu pun memenuhi ruang tu. Tapi akak tu tak segempal makcik sebelum. Jadi, masih ada jarak sedikit di antara kami. Itu je yang mampu aku buat masa tu. Harap-harap solat jemaah kami 1 saf tu diterima walaupun saf tak berapa lurus, bahu tak berapa rapat.

Adegan 2 :

Seperti senario di atas, ada ruang kat sebelah aku. Tapi kali ni, ada saf ke-2. Ada orang betul-betul kat belakang ruang kosong. So macam biasa, orang depan akan panggil orang belakang untuk fill-up the space kalau tak ada orang nk volunteer.

"Kak, meh datang depan?"

"Tak naklah. Sempitlah"

Aku memang terkenal dengan mempunyai airmuka yang sombong sejak lahiriah. Tapi aku selalu berusaha untuk memaniskan muka aku dengan secebis senyuman supaya orang tau yang aku ni takdela sombong mana pun. Tapi aku nak mintak maaf banyak-banyak kat akak tu, aku memang terus masam mencuka dan terpaksa stare die dan mungkin aku rasa dah ter-jeling dia sikit lepas die melafazkan perkataan 'sempitlah'. Nauzubillah. Padahal tak sempit langsung. Dan kakak 'sempit' tu takdelah gemuk gedempol yang boleh menyebabkan dia mati kesempitan di antara kami, ahli jemaah. Nasib baik ada seorang kakak lain datang menyelamatkan keadaan sebelum pahala puasa aku pada hari tu hilang terus atau jadik negatif. Even lepas kakak lain tu masuk, ada lagi ruang sikit di antara kami. Selesa. Tak sempit pun. Langsung tak.

...

Peristiwa ini bukan berlaku di Masjid DE je. Aku pernah solat Terawikh di masjid-masjid lain. Similar. Tapi selalunya, mereka yang terlibat ialah makcik-makcik tua. Biasanya aku redhakan aje sebab maaf cakap, aku faham sebenarnya, zaman dahulu ada yang kurang ilmu agama. Aku tak tau hal ibu-ibu lain, tapi seperti ibu aku, aku tak rasa die ade pergi sekolah agama macam kita pergi di sebelah petang, lepas balik dari sekolah kebangsaan. Sebab tu ramai ibu-ibu pergi usrah dan hadir kelas mengaji pada zaman sekarang ni. To pick up those they've missed. Tapi yang aku sangat sedih, orang-orang muda pun ada yang berperangai camtu. Tak cukupkah ajaran ustaz dan ustazah dulu kat sekolah? Walaupun aku tak habis sekolah agama kerana isu kesihatan, tapi aku masih ingat perkara-perkara penting yang ustaz dan ustazah ajar. Alhamdulillah. Mungkin tidak semua. Tapi aku faham betapa pentingnya saf perlu dirapatkan dan diluruskan ketika solat jemaah. Betapa penting, setiap ahli dalam saf itu sudah baligh. Dan penting juga untuk setiap ahli di dalam saf itu untuk sah wudhu'nya ketika menunaikan solat. Ini semua basic. Kalau tak boleh penuhi kriteria-kriteria ni, tak perlulah datang jauh-jauh untuk solat berjemaah di Masjid sebab anda semua mungkin tak dapat pahala yang sepatutnya anda dapat. Itu tidak apa, kerana diri sendiri yang kena. Tapi janganlah sedut pahala aku juga yang takdela banyak mane pun dengan menyimpan perasaan benci pada kamu semua. Ya. Aku ialah seorang manusia yang kurang sabar. Aku harap dengan menghadirkan diri sebagai salah seorang ahli jemaah dapat membantu diri aku menjadi seorang umat Islam yang lebih berguna. So, janganlah hilangkan niat aku tu.

Aku pun pernah terbatal wudhu' ketika solat. Mujur bukan ketika solat jemaah. Jika Allah tidak izinkan, perkara itu tak terjadi. Tetapi kalau perkara yang boleh kita kawal tetapi dengan sengaja tidak mahu mengawal, maka aku sangat benci dengan manusia-manusia ini.

So bagi semua yang baca entri ni, tolonglah ingat. Malam ni, sebelum solat Terawikh, tolong pandang kiri, tolong pandang kanan. Pastikan ada bahu-bahu lain yang menyentuh bahu-bahu anda. Pastikan jugak orang yang sebelah orang kiri anda tak dapat dilihat. Begitu jugak sebelah kanan. Ini tanda saf sudah lurus. Jika kriteria-kriteria ini belum dipenuhi, tolonglah ajak ahli-ahli jemaah yang di saf belakang untuk pergi ke depan, atau ahli jemaah di sebelah untuk membetulkan kedudukan. Selepas itu, barulah kita angkat takbir dengan tenang. Mudah-mudahan, ada sedikit improvement dalam masyarakat kita sebagai kelompok umat Islam yang lebih berdisiplin. Insya Allah.

Allahu Akbar.

***

Aku bersyukur.

Semalam aku ikut A.S dan Y ke Wangsa Maju ambik kete baru diorang. Memang cun. Worth every penny bak kata Ainor. Well, thats not what I want to blog about. Aku nak citer pasal kejadian selepas tu.

Aku ikut amik kete tu sebab aku akan bawak kete Kelisa balik rumah. From Wangsa Maju, kitorang ikut Jln Ampang pastu masuk Jln Tun Razak pastu masuk ke KL-Putrajaya pastu keluar ikut exit Bukit Jalil pastu lalu Stadium Bukit Jalil, pastu lalu TPM pastu lalu jalan Kinrara-Puchong sebelum tiba ke jalan Puncak Jalil. Kalau tak jam dlm 30minit dah boleh sampai. Tapi disebabkan jam, boleh jadi sampai 2 jam. Kaki kiri aku punya la lenguh sebab nak kena tekan klac banyak kali sebab jam. Dari Jln Tun Razak tu.. sampailah nak masuk ke highway. Keluar highway pulak.. lalu jalan stadium tu lagilah.... mak aih... gila tension siot. Time tu aku baru terpikir betapa naik motor lagi la nikmatnye dari bawak keter. Walaupun berpanas berhujan dan bahaya sikit dari bwk keter, tapi langsung takde nak tension mcm bawak keter bila terperangkap dalam jam ni. Seriously!

Pastu pagi tadi pulak aku ikut diorang pegi keje sebab motor aku tinggal kat parking M.R. Lagi satu azab. Punyalah kena berhimpit tak ingat! Nasib baik aku naik pagi, kalau petang dgn bau ketiak lagi, bau kaka lagi.. fuh! Takleh tahan siot.

Bersyukur!!!!

Is your safety-belt fastened?

Yesterday was indeed very tiring for me. I went out of the house around 10am to shop groceries with mom. Came back home and get ready to attend a wedding of Teh's friend's. Reached Teh's house at 12.30pm and we went straight to Bant with the help of my Hitachi. After that, he decided to follow me to my meeting so as a punishment, he drove straight from Bant to SriDam again, with the help of my Hitachi. Oh my, the path we took was 'the shortest route' according to that small device, so we went through all the forrest and jungle and finally, once we've reached the highway, we felt relieved. Hitachi did not let us down this time. :)

We reached the meeting 1 hour late but it was all worth it because we got to hear a talk from a very respectful person, DiAna. She shared with everyone present on how she spends her daily life and it sounds so relaxing and fun.

Later after the meeting, Baba joined us and our stomach grumbled like after most of other meetings. So we decided to grab some food. Since all 3 of us haven't been to Tropik before, we decided to dine in there. First impression, it was huge. When we came in, hm, not attractive. Later we found the 'secret passage' to go to the 'upper world' and that's when we saw the REAL Tropik. Still not attractive, though. The Stabak store was quite nice, with the booth and very cosy like other Stabak stores.

After we munched our faces into the super-licious Tunnel Sandwiches, we just toured around in Tropik and went back. We could not go back very late because I have to send Teh first, and then I'll be driving back alone, which I really hate, especially at night. So after dropping off Baba, Teh drove to his mansion and I steered the wheel myself back home. The road was smooth (well, not literally!), and just as I reached another junction (out of many many junctions from his mansion), there was a motorbike which did not stop at the cross section, because apparently I was on the straight line where he has to make a turn. So obviously without a doubt, it was my way. Luckily I did not drive very fast at that time. I was on the left lane. And I was shocked that he did not stop plus, he honked me with his 'ttittt titttt' kinda honk which did not alert me at all. I steered to the right lane and stopped. And he could not do anything but steered back and make a U-turn himself. It was sooo his fault because after he turned, he looked at me and raised up his hand, apologizing. I was shocked. I did not even honk where if I were to sit at the co-driver seat, my hand would just freely go over and honk that damn guy. But I just could not believe how he could be so confident to just not bother to even have a pause at that junction. And guess, what. he did not wear a helmet. Which I really hate! I hate people who are not using their safety gears when they should! I hope that night was an alarm for him to be more careful and cautious while he's on the road. Well, it was for me too. Since it was dark, I did not want to lengthen the incident so I just stared at him and drove off. I reached home safely around 10pm after buying dinner for Momy. Alhamdulillah...

Luckily I recited doa naik kenderaan. :)

Earlier in the morning, Momy and I saw a bleeding woman by the road with the police patrol and some patrons. We just got back from our groceries-shopping. It was scary. Blood in her face and feet. And she was lying on the grass, on someone's lap, did not move, looked very helplessly. Another lady held an umbrella above her since it was raining at that time. There was no smashed car, only a good condition motorbike on the side of the road. We did not know what happened. But when I told Teh about it, he said maybe it could be a langgar lari case. Hmm, probably.

The whole thing took about 12 hours! Phew~

These days, you'll never know what's gonna hit you. Until you've been hit!

Take care, people. Drive safe.

Double bad news

Last Monday, I received 2 bad news. Both came from my friends.

1) I have been told by my colleague that HW is currently "downsizing" their team. What's that supposed to mean? O, who was a QC engineer in HW, worked only about 3 months and has been sacked by their management due to "downsizing" reason. Hurm.. I am not surprised by that news at all because I have heard some rumours about O is going to be terminated by HW management before this. Later when we were on our way to go for breakfast, we met R who is an engineer for HW also. We asked about O and about their company's "downsizing" issue and he said there are more who are being terminated. Suddenly I remembered my friend/coursemate who is an engineer in HW also. R knows him and he said that my friend is one of them. Damn. I called my friend but he didnt answer. Later in the evening, my friend called me and he told me that he is already in his hometown and currently looking for job. He said his former company practice LIFO (Last In First Out) for this "downsizing" reason. I am seriously sorry for him. May he get a new job soon.

LIFO? WTF was that? Can you simply terminate people just like that??? Well, yeah they can if they dont have any sympathy for their workers. Seriously, this incident really made me realized that working for people/company is not secured enough. Even if they stated that they contracted you for certain time, but there are some hidden clause saying that the company can terminate you anytime without any reason. This incident also made me realized that IF I were in my friend's shoe, what should I do???

2) In the evening, I read my friend's ym status saying that AS has just came out from Hospital without any serious injury. Like... what? So I straightaway called AS and he said he is fine and at police station lodging a report. My friend who made the status then told me that AS has crashed his mom's Honda CRV to one of PICC lamp post in Putrajaya. Lucky he wore seat belt at that time!

I am going to visit him tomorrow because currently he is quarantined for one week and he said that he is still in trauma to sit at driver's seat.

Seriously guys, wear your seat belt all the time. (this message is dedicated to me also :| )

p/s: I don't like bad news. Who does?

Alhamdulillah, umur kau masih panjang Ainor.

Switch off the light, lay in bed, close your eyes and listen to it.

I just have to post up this song. It's for all the lovebirds out there. Who would have guessed, after more than 5 years, we can still say these words to each other. ..

Love

Feel love

Every question

Every answer too

Ever constant

Ever changing view

It's a memory in the sun

Or it's hell in the darkness

Maybe it's all around to see

If we try

Maybe it's been inside of me

All this time

Love love love

Love love love

Love love love

Love love love

Love love love

Love love love

Crazy with it

Crazier without

Never certain

Never full of doubt

Now you feel it, now you don't

Do you know what you're feeling?

Where did it come from and where does it go

If it were right in front of me would I know?

Love love love

Love love love

Love love love

Love love love

Love love love

Love love love

Love love love

Love love love

Love love love

When it is the end for everything else, it is the beginning for us.

It's almost another 2 days before that time of the month again. Since few weeks back, I must say, that I am so surprised with how my drummerboi has changed. He's still tall. Still on drums. Still driving BlackCosmos and riding WangRinggitMalaysia. But on top of all that, he's becoming more of a friend now. A partner I can rely on to. A person I can share something with. And he is now the guy that I want to take care of for many years to come. :)

This has been a hectic week for me. It has been for him too. And some of my other friends. Who knows, even when I've given up one of my side-jobs, I am getting more busy-er. But what's important, I like keeping myself busy doing all the things I love. Spending time with Teh, going to health-education meetings, meeting up old friends, playing piano at home (gosh I miss this a lot! - I almost forgot I CAN play!), accompanying Teh to wherever he wants to go (well, almost wherever) and most importantly, I can plan what I wanna do for the many days (or years) to come! Weee. I actually have time to plan! That's another step. :)

Ok, so what have I been planning about? So many things! One of the steps I've taken, was creating blogs for hobby, future and fun. Yerp, all 3 blogs are up! Since I am managing all 3 simultaneously, please expect some delays on one after another. :D I have also been invited to a wonderful business presentation tomorrow. I feel honoured to be invited as I have been adoring the founder of this company ever since he interviewed me for my first job! Yerp. I thank him in so many ways he has taught each and everyone of us during his stay in our company, and now he's creating his own and wants me to be part of it - am feeling truly overjoyed and nervous, actually. ;)

Am also planning for a road trip down to South! Probably sometime next month. Yerp, it's gonna be a fun one and most importantly, I hope it would benefit the other party the most. That's what our objective has been all this while. To help people to help others. 

Well, everything seems to be coming to an end now. American Idol has been crowned - love Adam, but love Kris more! D' Sole Survivor has survived (I shall not name the winner now since Baba might not have watched it yet - I know I'm sweet :">) Heroes remain being heroes (I didn't spoil this one, OK? Peace), Prison Break ...

OK, let's just say that everything is settled. so what are there to download? I seriously don't know. And guess what, In another few more months, Wir (formerly known as Kembar) and I will celebrate(?) our 1 year anniversary being the IU-ans. Ha-ha! Hey, we promise to have a one good year and that's it, right? But so far, there has not been any other good offers from anyone else. :( Please offer me a job. Please! I can be your driver even though I totally hate driving! (Yes, I am -kinda- THAT desperate!)

Hey, do you notice there are so many phrases (in brackets) for this entry? Why ah? Can't I be just straight forward in everything.

Oh well, what I'm sure enough is ... I love you too! >:D<

XOXO

It's May 14th again!

To my dearest En. Puteh, Happy 26th Birthday. For you, it's just another day, but it is indeed, YOUR special day. So enjoy it while you can~

With lotsa hearts, lukings and chupurus~ Happy Birthday, my dear.

The Climb.

We "did" it again. I dont know whats wrong but it seems like this can't be fixed. I know its hard to imagine but no matter how hard we fought for it, we seems lost again. But everytime we feel lost or trapped in darkness, we know that we will find each other hands and we will held our hands together to find through. 

"The Climb"

I can almost see it.

That dream I'm dreaming, but

There's a voice inside my head saying

You'll never reach it

Every step I'm takin'

Every move I make

Feels lost with no direction,

My faith is shakin'

But I gotta keep tryin'

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down, but

No I'm not breaking

I may not know it, but

These are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most

I've just gotta keep goin', and

I gotta be strong

Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

Keep on movin'

Keep climbin'

Keep faith baby

It's all about, it's all about

The climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

Kelasku tunda lagi

Tension betul. Masuk ni dah 3 kali kot kelas CCNA aku postpone! Haihhh...!!! Dahlah last week aku tak dpt pegi replacement dia sebab dia buat hari Jumaat. Yelah, aku pegi Sabah.. tapi kalau aku tak pegi pun, time tu aku tgh keje kot! (dia buat petang Jumaat kol 2.30pm)

Takpelah.. sikit lagi nak abis. Lagi few more weeks. Pastu I'm done as a student. Penat dah nak belajar ni! Dah tua kot!

8:19pm. Tak sabar nak melibas bulu tangkis kejap lagi.

p/s: banyak betul "kot" aku dalam entri ni, kot?

Mak Yen, dalam kenangan.

0415...

Tidur aku dikejutkan dengan ketukan pintu bilik yang amat kuat. Mama di luar memanggil nama aku dengan suara yang kuat dan sedikit cemas. Sebaik sahaja pintu bilikku dibuka, Mama berkata... "Mak Yen dah takde, Zayed..." dengan teresak-esak sambil memelukku. Terus sahaja wajah-wajah ceria dan garang Mak Yen menguasai fikiran aku. Mak Yen? Dia sihat! Tapi bagaimana pula? Kami pun terus bersiap untuk mengunjungi rumah Arwah di Keramat.

0515...

Kami tiba di rumah Arwah dengan perasaan yang sungguh sayu. Di satu sudut, Syafiq cucu kesayangan Arwah meraung sambil menangis teresak-esak. Hati aku terus sebak melihat betapa hancur luluhnya hati seorang anak kecil yang kehilangan Neneknya yang menjaganya sejak dari kecil. Arwah sudah seperti ibu kepada dia dan adiknya. Di satu sudut lagi aku melihat Anir, anak bongsu Arwah yang sudah bertahun tinggal berdua menangis sambil memeluk Abah. Hatiku sebak dan hampir-hampir aku hilang kawalan tapi aku berjaya menahannya.

0610...

Solat Subuh di Masjid Al-Ansar. Di situ pengumuman dibuat oleh AJK masjid mengenai pemergian Arwah dan meminta AJK masjid yang lain supaya membuat persediaan. Alangkah mudahnya urusan pengkebumian dibuat jikalau anda tinggal berdekatan di kawasan masjid. Aku cuba merenung diri aku. Jikalau di rumah lama aku sering ke surau berdekatan, tetapi semenjak berpindah ke rumah baru, tangga surau sudah lama tidak dipijak. Haih...

0800...

Nasi lemak bungkus dijamah sebagai pengalas perut. Kehadiran kerabat keluarga Arwah yang lain menambahkan sebak di hati aku. Jenazah masih di hospital dan sudah hampir bersedia untuk bertolak ke masjid.

0930...

Jenazah tiba di masjid dan di situ, kaum keluarga terdekat memandikan Arwah dan seterusnya Arwah dikapankan. Kami menunggu di rumah Arwah sambil terus menyambut kunjungan-kunjungan rakan-rakan serta kaum keluarga Arwah. 

1100...

Jenazah tiba di rumah Arwah untuk memberi peluang kepada sahabat handai serta kaum keluarga menatap wajah Arwah buat kali terakhir. Yasin dibacakan bagi memudahkan perjalanan Arwah bertemu dengan Tuhannya. Langit yang tadinya cerah berubah kepada gelap dan hujan rahmat turun sebagai tanda kebesaran Yang Maha Esa. 

1245...

Jenazah diangkat dan dimasukkan kembali ke dalam van jenazah dan dibawa kembali ke Masjid untuk disembahyangkan. Rezeki Arwah kerana Masjid itu penuh dengan pelajar-pelajar sekolah menengah berhampiran yang datang untuk solat Zuhur berjemaah. Selesai solat jenazah, jasad Arwah pun dibawa ke tapak perkuburan pasar Keramat yang terletak tidak sampai 5 minit dari masjid. Alhamdulillah, hujan sudah pun berhenti seperti memberi laluan proses pengkebumian berlangsung.

1400...

Penggali kubur sudah pun bersedia untuk menyerahkan tugas menanam jenazah kepada kami. Ketiga-tiga anak lelaki Arwah turun ke dalam kubur untuk menyambut jenazah. Arwah diangkat dan diturunkan perlahan-lahan dan disambut dengan pelukan oleh ketiga-tiga anak lelaki Arwah. Tanah kemudiannya digali dan dicangkul untuk menimbus kubur. Selesai jenazah dikambus, Tahlil dibacakan dan doa dipanjatkan supaya mudah-mudahan ia sampai kepadaNya.

 1545...

Semua yang datang pulang dan meninggalkan Arwah keseorangan di dalam kubur. Kami sekeluarga berkunjung ke pasar keramat untuk mengisi perut sebelum pulang ke rumah.

Sepanjang aku mengenali Arwah, beliau sungguh pemurah dan sentiasa menunjukkan dirinya sihat. Sungguh tidak disangka kerana antara adik beradiknya, beliau merupakan yang paling nampak sihat dan tiada tanda-tanda yang beliau sakit. Dahulu sewaktu Arwah sekeluarga tinggal di Bangsar, beliau sering menghidangkan kami bihun tebalnya yang bagi aku tiada tandingan sedapnya.

Setiap yang datang pasti akan kembali. Hanya masa menentukan siapa yang bakal pulang berjumpa Tuhan Yang Maha Esa. Cepat atau lambat. Marilah kita sedekahkan Al-Fatihah kepada Arwah semoga rohnya ditempatkan di dalam golongan orang-orang yang beriman.

Al-Fatihah...

Short scribble.

It's good to have someone to hold your hands when you're feeling blue.

To lend a shoulder when your head needs to lean on to.

It's nice if you can talk to someone, who you care for, dearly.

And share everything you wanna do, wanna say, just freely.

But we're all human beings who tend to forget.

Who only misses that one person when he/she is very far and rarely we met.

And that's when the time you sit in your room, in a silent.

Thinking if that other person still care for you, at this very moment.

Oh how I wish it's good to have someone to hold my hands now, that I'm feeling blue.

Someone to lend a shoulder cause I really need to lean on to...

It's Friday? No, thanks.

Yesterday we've received the 'letter'. I replied to it with a wink in the end. I brought back my headphone and can't wait to bring home the rest of my stuffs. Pantene replied to it this morning with hope that everyone is being treated fairly and obeys whatever rules that have been set. Day 1 - I was the first. Let's see how it goes next week.

I hate driving. Have I told you that? Mom has been away for a couple of days so not wanting the car to be left alone, I drove to work. Hate it. Today we had to meet Fufu at her office in that big city. Imagine, cars, big lorries, buses, cars, and more cars! Luckily Kembar showed me the way patiently all the way. Weeee. Thanks Kembar~ On our way back, rain heavily! Gosh. I almost lost Kembar in the middle of that bad traffic. But fortunately my instinct was quite OK, and she was so kind to check up on me at every junction. Thank you very much!

Now am gaining my mood to get ready for brewing coffees. Errkh. When am I going to quit everything? I want to buy KayuHitam for my cats and plant my cactus and put more flowers to my garden! When can I do these? Hmm. Soon, I hope. Very soon, God willing.

Can't wait!

Cuai.

Aku cuai.

Maaf banyak-banyak.

One is never enough, 2 is more than enough, 3 is whats wrong with you anyway?

Merujuk kepada entri di bawah;

Hurmm... nak buat blog pasal basket? Malas ah.. banyak sgt ah pulak plus aku rasa kalau nak blog pasal basket pun, aku just blog kat sini jer. 

Anyway, tadi jadi pulak friendly game antara Froggers dgn Zeroes. Aku pulak samdol gila hanya perasan SMS yang mengatakan confirm, pada pukul 6.18 tapi dlm SMS tu ckp start main 5.45!!! Tadi hujan lebat x ingat, so aku igt cancel lah.. tatau pulak Cyber tak hujan! Haihh... So aku call coach tapi Faiz (manager) yang angkat dia ckp time tu baru 1st quarter (ada 4 quarter semuanya) so aku pun apalaga.. rushing tak ingat. Aku sampai2 je dah masuk 3rd quarter dah. Pastu masuk ganti si Ujon jadi center. Masuk tak sampai beberapa minit aku cuba nak score, sekali kena block dgn center diorang. Arrrggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! Takpe... pengalaman semua tu. Kitorang kalah... err entah berapa point aku pun taktau tapi yang pasti kitorang kalah. 

NCBL start next month and aku seriously kena bina stamina balik. Gila pancit sial main full court!!! Rasa mcm nak termuntah aku tadi penat gila!!! 

I really need to play more! :'(

How much is too much?

Do you have a blog? How many blogs do you have? More than 2? Do you think you have too many blogs to handle? Think again.

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I used to share a blog with Teh not so long ago. We shared it with everyone. Every single thing on what happened in our life was posted almost every day. Then, we decided to have our own. He created one about his toy. From a small metal, up to the whole big-bang set. The project is being put on hold for several reasons. Then, he created a personal one. He made it private. And then he shared the entries with me. And that he made it private again. 

I created my own and made it private but shared with him. And then I stopped. 

Towards the end of my final year in uni, I started another one. I made it visible to public. But I never told anyone about it. He found out about the blog few months back. My last entry was dated September 2008. 

Recently, he came with the idea to create another blog. A shared one. He wants us to have a blog together, again. Of course, me, being the most supportive person ever, agreed with him. Even though having a shared blog with him means ... writing 95% of the entries. But I like to write. And he loves to read mine. So here I am writing on it now. :x

Soon after that, there's another blog. This time, it's about his ride. Currently, it's still in the first stage. I'm sure this one is gonna be very interesting because the transformation of his ride took a long time (since 5 years ago) and still on-going. And of course, the best part is because I was there all the time during the transformation. So it somehow bring back the sweet-sour-bitter memories of the past 5 years of me sitting at the co-driver seat. 

In a short while, I reckon another blog will be created. This time it's about his game. Like he said, "This year is about my toy, my ride and my game". Toy blog is on. Ride blog is up. Game blog must be fun too because I've been accompanying him buying all the gadgets for the past few months. So let's just wait and see. "/

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Do you still think you have too many blogs to handle? Think again.

No wonder budak senang betul hilang kat Malaysia.

Tadi lepas hanta Aiya pegi keje, aku pun masuklah lift. Pastu lift pun sampai ke LG2. Ada 4 orang masuk. Sepasang couple, sorang Mak dgn anak dia. Bila lift dah tutup, si Mak ni tetiba kecoh, "eh, where's my son?" Couple yg prihatin ni pun ckp kat dia yg diorang memang nampak sorang budak dgn dia tadi... Pastu si mak ni dah menggelabah pastu nak tekan2 lift dgn harapan lift yang sedang menuju ke bawah ni (aku nak turun ke parking motor kat B3) dgn magiknye akan naik ke atas ambik balik anak dia. Memang takpat ar jek!!!!

Moral of the story: Kalau beli Crispy Popiah, sila beli 2 sebab satu tak cukup. Lapar nih, mak aku tak balik lagi. :(

Morning nag.

I took the public transport to work today. Like always, I either reach the station just when the train left. Or reach there on time to know that the train decided to have its 30mins delay. Whichever way, I won't be 9am sharp at work. It's not that I'm not punctual. It's the train. (excuses and more excuses). I can wake up as early as 6am or as late as 8.20am, but I'll reach office after 9am everytime. The only time I was early was when Sista was around and we go to office together because hers starts at 8.30am. That time, I was super proud to unlock the door every morning. Only for those few days...

One thing (well, out of so many other things, actually) I don't understand about the public here in Malaysia is that they cannot co-operate. They just won't! Seriously. The train stops. Door opens. And everyone was swarming in front of the door, waiting for the people from inside to get off so that they can board in. But the thing is, they just stare at you (if not push as if they can walk 'through' you) and do not give any space for you to pass them. I would say 'excuse me' with the most polite way I could ever say in the crowd with minimum oxygen supply, but they just do not understand. They don't. Sick.

take all of your wasted honor, every little past frustration, take all of your so-called problems, better put 'em in quotations

Well, can't complaint much because that's what you get when using public transport in this country. True. I know there are some countries who have worse public-transport-experience but I've been to places where the public transportation is the most convenient and comfortable way to get around town. But for our case, the only advantage is that it's cheap. Of course, sometimes Teh & I ride with his bike. It's more convenient because we can beat all the traffic. Super cool. We can honk the big cars for not using their brain on the road. Pitt pitttt pitttt potttt ponnnn. The downside? It's very hot on sunny day. It's very cold at night. And when it rains, that's it. But I've got a super cool helmet few weeks back. Thanks to Teh. I just loooovveeeee the ARCRed. ;P

Getting a car is another option. It's the most convenient way to travel. You won't get wet during stormy weather. You won't be sweating like shyte when driving at 12 midday. Plus, you get to listen to your favourite radio station when you're stuck in the traffic jam. Oh no. Traffic jam! Everyone hates it. Who doesn't? But it does not mean we need to freak out when we're trapped in it. Just enjoy the time you have with your partner, and things will go on just fine. Like they said, your reactions determine what's gonna happen in the future. But why isn't everyone driving their own? Well, obviously because it's pricey. Even when the economic crisis hits everyone and the cars price has gone down, it still is, pricey. Because of the economic crisis. (Du'h) Then, you have to pay for the toll, petrol, car wash, air-cond fix, service, re-paint, etc.

Whichever way you choose, whatever method you pick, there's always pros and cons. Always. You hardly get everything you want at the same. But we can always appreciate them everytime they happened to us.

Let's look at the person next to us, now. Smile at her. Don't think of the last time you got angry at him. Think about the nicest time you guys have spent together. Cherish every moment. And be loved.

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Satu lagi tidak-tidur-malam.

Dah kol 12:53am, and aku still lagi tgh sibuk menaip keyboard laptop Dell aku ni. Tadi berita baru keluar pasal 5000 orang kena retrench dari Dell. Well, economy is sucks now. Walaupun kerja aku kat Diruntuh ni agak bosan sebab dah hampir berbulan2 asyik duk melangut jer, tapi aku masih bersyukur sebab masih ada sumber pendapatan tetap bulan2. Dapatlah bayar duit kete, duit moto, duit loan, duit Takaful, duit bil api bil air, duit topup dan duit buat belanja harian. (Banyak betul perkataan duit). 

Well, idea nak buat shared blog ni balik datang bila aku baca2 balik blog lama kat blogdrive. Ditambah pulak dgn aku pun tahun ni tak pernah blog langsung sebab malas gila nak update blog kat wp tu sebab wp lembab nak mampos. So dgn adanya shared blog ni, takdelah blog tu sangap je nak tunggu aku update sebulan skali. At least H rajin sket nak update blog ni dari aku. Tgk jelah blogdrive tu, almost 90% post dia jer. Hahahhaahahah... Tak kisahlah, janji ada update. 

Esok ada Safety Training. Bangang betul Weiwei ni. Kerja dah start barulah korang terhegeh-hegeh nak buat safety briefing lah, QC briefinglah... Before this kitorang duk melepak kat opis takde pulak nak buat! Tak organize langsung!!!! Aku yang dah sedap tarik kabel dan duduk atas kabel ladder kena pegi dgr briefing yang super mengantuk nih. Haihhh... Dahlah bilik tu aircond rosak, stuffy giler! Deyy.... dpt projek berbiliion2, aircond pun takleh nak repair ke Dol? Nasib baik amoi receptionist tu lenglui. Huhuhuhuhhuh!!! Esok dlm jadual abis kol 12tghari. So lepas smayang Jumaat takkan balik ofis? Gila x best! Tapi kena gak balik opis sebab nak print CIDB form. Yeay!!! Pasni ko takleh ah nak berlagak dgn aku H! Aku pun akan dpt green card pasni! Ko igt ko sorang jer ada green card? Huhuhuhuhuh.... Pastu aku boleh taruk safety helmet kat blakang kete mcm ramai engineer yang poyo buat. Lantaklah orang nak ckp poyo pun! Wakakakakaka!! Tak poyo sebnanye, safety helmet tu standby so bila ada spotcheck ke apa kat site, senang dah ada boleh amik dan pakai utk buat tayangan Spektra depan diorang. Wakakakaka...

Tak saba nak jam lagu Biffy Clyro lagi hari Ahad ni. Layan gila sial lagu ni!

Life is Wonderful. Don't you think?

It takes a crane to build a crane

It takes two floors to make a story

It takes an egg to make a hen

It takes a hen to make an egg

There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word

And it takes some words to make an action

It takes some work to make it work

It takes some good to make it hurt

It takes some bad for satisfaction

Life is wonderful

Life goes full circle

Life is wonderful

It takes a night to make it dawn

And it takes a day to make you yawn brother

And it takes some old to make you young

It takes some cold to know the sun

It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love

But it takes you years to know what love is

It takes some fears to make you trust

It takes those tears to make it rust

It takes the dust to have it polished

Life is wonderful

Life goes full circle

Life is so full of

Life is so rough

Life is wonderful

Life goes full circle

Life is our love

It takes some silence to make sound

It takes a loss before you found it

And it takes a road to go nowhere

It takes a toll to make you care

It takes a hole to make a mountain

Life is wonderful

Life goes full circle

Life is wonderful

Life is meaningful

Life is wonderful

Life is so wonderful

It is so meaningful

It is so wonderful

It is meaningful

It is wonderful

It is meaningful

It goes full circle

Wonderful

Meaningful

Full circle

Wonderful

First

Sorry, I'm the first!!! Bluweekkkkkkk!!! Pbbbttttt!!!