FUCK!

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Motivate me?

Kring kring!

I need to get up!

We need to be up!

Ok, so I've realized these few years that I can't be productive by staying home. That's why I've been doing odd jobs for the past years and have been really good at it. I've received great feedbacks from my superiors and I honestly do like what I've done so far. But when I got home, I'll just lie down or sit back wasting my time in front of the monitor or playing games on my phone or catching up the episodes of how smarter 5th grade kids are compared to some people. Dem. Not that I'm 100% in-productive, but I could say only 20% of the time used to a good cause. Dem dem dem!

So when the new year's approaching, I've said to myself to be working harder next year! To just get up and go! I know I can't change myself while being at home. So I really hope I'm motivated enough to go out everyday and give my all before coming back to my bunk.

Can I?

I hope I can. I know I can. Just need some booster and waiting for the right time to pull the trigger.

And for you. I know you'll do fine. I want to be able to get hold to myself, first. And then I'm sure we can go through this together. I sincerely hope you'll do great in the things you're doing right now. You have got the right attitude, just not the right technique yet. Well, you know what they say. Practice makes perfect. And please believe in that. Because I'm starting to get the benefits of it already. It sure takes time. Long or short, totally depends on your effort and willingness to do it.

Hope we will stay strong going through this.

Up up and away!

2 0 1 0. Go!

Empty.

Yawn~

I'm sick. Yes. Having a high ego shows that we're sick. Just learnt that last week and still not doing anything to 'heal'. Well, suit me!

I am currently working on MrD since morning. Having an empty of Spaghetti by my side. Tissues of sniffing and snuffing here and there. A jug of plain water from downstairs only to find that there's no mug around. Opened wallet - and guess what's inside? Nothing. A switched off TV in front of me. Laying my back on the sofa. And best of all. Alone! I'm loving this situation. There's no awkwardness of moving my legs every time somebody wants to pass by while I'm sitting on the couch. And of course, I can sit in which ever position I'd like, wearing whatever I want and do not want to! Hahaha. Seriously, I love this situation. Only that, the deadline is in the next couple of days. My legs are broken (direct Malay translation). And I am not yet employed.

Was drooling (and still am) at Bass & Cullen since morning. Oh my gawd. I know Westwick is British and all, but having a band? Music band? OMG. He just couldn't be more awesomeness-tessst. But dang, both of them are younger than me. And seems like, everyone else around me is much younger than me too. Am I getting older? Cannot be. I just celebrated my birthday in the previous post! ^_^

He's outstation...again. Suddenly craving for cupcakes. He's into doughnuts but to me, they are just a bit dry to my throat. I prefer cupcakes. Shall we go for cuppies for the next tea-break, yoy? Only that Chica can satisfy me. Oh, and there's one friend of my cousin's. Her cuppies are awesome. Not too sweet. Just the way I like it. :D

Baked muffins yesterday. I think all this while, my muffins tasted more like a scone. So am working on how to bake a scone for my next baking session. Dem. Now I'm craving for that English Scone from *$, heated up with 2 cubes of butter at the side. Nyummy.

We went 'hunting' last weekend. Right after the wedding celebration of my dear ex-schoolmate. Oh, my. I sooo can't wait to be able to really own the 'hunted items'. Ok, one for me, and one for him. Weeee. But being me, a non-productive-unemployed-lazy arse person alive, I may have to stare at the poster a little longer than holding the actual thing. ;c

So much for the month of December. It's the last month of the year. Means if you're not meeting the KPI of the; stress level, cash-less, breakdowns just yet. Wait for it. It could all gather up and happen in the very last minute of the so-called 2009. Till then, breathe-in...breathe-out. What's there to look forward to in 2010? Ah-lottt, I must say.

As for me, it's a one step further to everything. Some I have planned, and some I have never intend to. But Allah knows best. Everything has so far been quite well patterned out for me. So I'm sticking with the plan. God willing, everything and I mean EVERYTHING will go well.

Insya Allah.